I would like to say it has been a long time,
but it hasn't.
The same flavours fill my senses,
only they come
from a different source.
I still remember you,
sleeping in my bed, next to me.
I couldn't sleep,
I couldn't believe
you had just made love to me,
so intensely,
so close together,
you were breathing in my face.
If I close my eyes,
I can still see you
and hear you.
I remember how you asked me to come closer
so that you could hold me in your arms,
in the middle of the night,
half asleep.
I can still smell you,
I remember the taste of your neck,
your ears and your shoulders.
You made me fall, I was so into you...
but you were mean,
cruel to me.
You destroyed my hope, played me, used me...
Sometimes I try to understand
how could someone like you
treat me like that.
You were my worst bet.
However, I know that was a karmic punishment.
I played the same game with someone else,
someone who loved me
despite my selfishness.
You cheated me
just like I cheated him.
I beg the universe for forgiveness.
I also hope karma will ask you to pay for your debts...
I loved you.
Maybe I still do.
I hate you.
Goodbye.
